So, as promised I am going to post some of my creative work here. This particular piece was something I wrote last year for one of my creative writing classes. We were given the broad topic of a story between two siblings that had not seen each other for a long time, but we could not say blatantly why but imply the reasons (similar to the way Ernest Hemingway implies the main problem in "Hills Like White Elephants").
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Charlie
stared across the park, letting the piece of white chalk roll between
his hands. He glanced down at his watch. Half past three. He
should be here by now, Charlie thought. Slouching down on the
bench, he placed the chalk in the pocket of his worn jacket and
rubbed his hands on his jeans. Near the twisted oak tree, a small boy
with blonde hair was playing with his toy aeroplane. It swooped up in
the air as the boy added sounds of zoom! and swoosh! It
was funny; it didn’t seem so long ago that he and his brother had
been playing in the street with toy planes and cars, or drawing
pictures in colourful chalk. Charlie was eighteen now, graduating
high school in two weeks. He wished his brother could make it.
“Hey.”
Charlie twisted his head around so fast that his neck seized up with
sharp stabbing. Massaging the muscle, he winced a smile to the gangly
teen sitting next to him. Dennis had always liked to sneak up behind
him ever since they were young.
“You’re
late,” Charlie said to his brother. “Don’t know why I expected
anything different.” A woman got out of her silver sedan parked on
the far side of the street, carrying a brown bag of groceries. A
large delivery truck drove by and Charlie blinked. The car had
been silver, right? Now it was a navy blue minivan, the kind his
mother had driven when he was young.
Shaking his head, Charlie turned his attention back to his brother.
“So, why’d you want to see me?”
“I was gonna ask you the same thing.” Dennis’ voice was
squeaky, a bit too high pitched for a boy of sixteen. Then again, he
had always seemed too young for his age, at least to Charlie.
Charlie shrugged, rolling the chalk in his hands again. “Why aren’t
you coming to my graduation? I thought—“
“You know why. I can’t. Don’t try to tell me you’ve
forgotten. I mean, ten years is a long time, but still…” Dennis
never blinked, not when the wind blew in his face, not when the
bright sun peaked out from behind the clouds. He looked too pale, not
just the whiteness that comes from not enough sunlight. This was a
different pallor. Like he was covered in flour. “Mum and Dad
haven’t forgotten. And they weren’t even there.”
Trying to comprehend the meaning of his brother’s words, Charlie
said, “What the fuck are you talking about?”
Dennis looked away from him, towards the park. Charlie followed his
gaze and saw the little boy again. Six years old with blonde hair and
a large smile. His toy plane was nowhere to be seen, instead he
carried a bucket of coloured chalk. Blue, purple, orange. He skipped
out from under the trees, kneeling down on the side walk. A bike
rider came whizzing down towards him, veering away just in time. The
boy took no notice.
Charlie heard his brother speak softly next to him. “You know
exactly what I’m talking about. It’s the same thing that kept me
from entering high school, even middle school. The same thing that
kept me from you, Mum, and Dad. Made it so that you were alone and
blamed yourself.” His voice was higher now, childish. Goosebumps
arose on Charlie’s arms and he knew he had to face Dennis, even
though he didn’t want to. But he had to.
Slowly, his neck turned his head towards his brother. The little
six-year-old boy with blonde hair, swinging his legs off the edge of
the bench. “It wasn’t your fault, you know,” Dennis said.
Charlie hardly heard the words, shocked so much by this unreal
vision. But then again, how could he not have guessed? It was so
simple, so obvious. Ten years. How could he have forgotten?
“It was.” His throat and mouth felt dry and scratchy. He ran a
parched tongue over his lips. “I should have done something. I was
the older brother and I saw that stupid truck coming. I should have—“
Something rushed past him, catching his eye. He whipped his head
around, his neck screaming again in pain. But he didn’t care. It
was the boy, the little boy carrying the chalk. He was running
towards the street, busy with traffic.
Not again! Charlie’s mind wailed, but what could he do? He
stood up, fists clenching. He wanted to do something, anything. That
boy was going to get hit—
The woman he had seen carrying the groceries ran to the boy, throwing
an arm around him, stopping him. She knelt down and scolded him. The
boy nodded reluctantly, then gave his mother a hug. They disappeared
inside the silver sedan.
“There was nothing you could do, then or now.” Charlie didn’t
turn to look at his brother and wished he could tune out his voice.
It was too painful. The chalk pictures in the street. Blue, purple,
orange. And red, bright red.
“I’m sor—“ Charlie turned. The bench was empty. He stood
there, staring at it for a few minutes, then placed a shaky hand on
the wood. The spot was warm. No, it’s cold. Dead cold.
Putting his hand back in his jacket pocket, Charlie turned to leave.
Then he paused. He pulled out the piece of white chalk he had been
fiddling with all day. One piece. He had had it forever, it seemed.
For many years now.
He placed the chalk gently on the bench. After tens years, it was
finally time to let go and move on.
